What The Fuck

What The Fuck (Prisoner Of Conscience)

by Pete Marchesi Introduction

The main reason I write is for children. I saw a young boy asking people on TV to have doctors halt using him to get cured. I have never forgotten this. We must stop operating on young kids. You do not know the pain.

And I am sure that the injection that puts you out, does not… get rid of the ordeal. I am sure that you feel everything. And if you were to talk about it. You could probably still be aware of the operation you have…

Having said that. Do you still want to get surgery? The soldiers and the tough guys say that it is important to want to live. I am against this. I can only say let me die in peace.

Issues

So we think. And we are not allowed to think. Getting a job makes sure of that. My family wants me to commit suicide. I am a prisoner of conscience. I guess life will pass me by. I am from South Africa. They have certain things there that people do not like. But no-one has a conscience there. They go on with their lives. People make very little money. And they are driven to crime, because there is not enough. They are doing what they have always been doing. And here… too. To drive dissidents out. And continue persecution.

We do not like what is happening. We are of the old. We want… to be of the old. When there were tribes and so on. Give us space to breathe.

They have me in an insane asylum. They just drove me to it. I was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. There is no proof of it. And now they have everyone taking pills.

There may… be a condition. But it is not an illness. Mad people… as long as they commit no crimes, should be allowed to exist out in the open. These people are our voice. The dissatisfaction with leaders over war. And we have war. All the time. Biko. A man in South Africa was beaten to death. Many live in the throes of anguish. Because we cannot make them move.

We want no more war. Let us speak. Let us speak… (I am thinking of becoming a Canadian Citizen. They have me here… I have spent a year for bad behavior in the insane asylum. I was homeless. This is the main reason. They determined that I was severely disabled and unable to take care of myself. I could not even speak. The courts put me in. It did not help that my sister went against me in open court. Telling them that I was a bad… family member. She quoted my writing. And helped… them.

I do not really want to leave them. But I have no choice. It is easy for them now to put me in for another conservatorship. This is the way.

It is usual that people who drink and take drugs fall victim to this. It is called Conservatorship. They take your rights. They will not even listen to you. To be homeless is basically against the law. I have been writing against the America regime. It has not mattered. I am hardly read. I do not regret it. I grew up in South Africa. Many conscientious people try their best. We want to know the truth. It is the same as before. But the hand is sophisticated. It is still the rich people in charge. And they want to take advantage of others. I don’t know what… I am against.

It is those same people that almost exterminated the Indians. We want to forget and say it is a better world. It is the same people that exploded two atom bombs on towns in Japan. This is severe. We see the world being destroyed by rich people. Who do not give one iota about the fact that we are polluting ourselves to death. I want to be against this. And suggest things we can do. The only thing is to make yourself heard. Not necessarily in protest. It does not work. Not… by striking and not working. They catch you and put you away. I am doing well at the insane asylum. I will be out soon. But many who do not know how are going to be there four years. Four… years. Sometimes a person gets mad at their mother. And shouts at her. They take off on a trip because they do not want to know anymore. They are just against it. And they become vocal. This is called inappropriate behavior. It is because they want to hold onto the status quo. Which says do not rock the boat. And because in America you can become rich easily, try to become rich.

Many of us do not want this. Money is not… what we want. We want to be left alone. We do not want people telling us what to do. How to act. And what to think. We are against this. Because they want… us to believe that the atom bomb was the hand of God. And that things that are happening can be easily reversed. We know that pollution from the nuclear industry lasts just that little bit too long. We do not want it!

And nobody is listening to us. So we are told to behave. Not to rock the boat. Not to join others… Not, in revolution. But knowing what we need to know. That is all we are asking. The news. And the writers.

They are on the side of America. They see doctors as fortunate. We do not want our skin punctured. It is not a religious belief. It is a natural concern. We do not want children with terminal illnesses to be prodded and operated upon. We are against this. The doctors experiment. And we see illness as the natural way to keep down population. The doctors are out of control. We take vaccinations that make us sick. That weaken our bodies. But most of all we have made up doctrines to keep the world under strict control. So we can use anybody’s resources… and make lots of money from it.

How do we fight this? I do not fight. But at least let me express my conscience. I am sure that if those in power read. They may try to avert the global warming. They may want to stop the ozone layer from disappearing. They may want… to return to candles. Electricity is one of the foremost things that is polluting our… world. As men and women. We want to be heard.

It may be inappropriate. Because rich people have an agenda. To put away poverty. They do not realize that poverty is part of the world. So they outlaw the existence of begging. How can they do that!? How can they do that…

There are people that do not want to work. It is their right. Their hearts are heavy. They do not want to participate. And support business.

This is their right! But they get into trouble with their families. Who have learned to support each other financially. We just ask to be allowed to go to the street and live there. No camping allowed. It is one other thing. You are not allowed in many places to live in your car. It is considered camping. What are you trying to do? You are asking ordinary people to focus on making money. You are telling them this is their purpose in life. We have left something out. The atom bomb.

Don’t you think that was a cruel thing to do? I do. I do not think that God would allow this. But people are saying it is part of the greatness of America. It is not true. It is not… true. The whole nuclear technology thing. It is savage. We are terrorizing citizens. Terrorizing them. There are so many things wrong.

We just want a platform from which to deal with them. One other thing is not having seed. Vegetables and fruit. We use a special seed to grow watermelon. So that there is no seed in the fruit. It has not anything to do with convenience. It is the way we torture ourselves. And horrible advertising presses us to buy the product. We want natural seed to exist. We do not want it played with. We need a platform. We need to be heard. And we want to be able to take steps to get rid of this type of false advertising. And return seed to it’s natural occurrence. The rich want nothing of it. They want to make money.

They keep on saying it is progress. But they know that if we turn, it will cause trouble. We… do not want the trouble. We want pollution issues to be dealt with. We are together on this. But the Administration only fines companies that disobey the law. This is not the right way to deal with the issue. The politicians stand up and say there is this issue and that… issue. But they don’t deal with the issues. We need to vote in the right politicians. That are willing to go against the status quo. And handle the end of the world the right… way. By not standing around and saying an act of God will take care of it. Nuclear technology. They say that it has brought a bunch of new medical advances. This is not true. We do not want to be touched. Where are our rights? We do not want to have doctors come in and tell… us what to do. And then be taken to court for negligence. Because we do not want to cater to them.

They… are in charge. The doctor. Sometimes we want to be left to die in peace. And one of the biggest issues is suicide. It is not against the law. You make the excuse and then lock them up. How can you do that? A person is suffering. He or she does not want to live anymore. You lock them up?

What kind of thing is that to do with someone that you purportedly love? That you say we must be humane and go into other countries and kill people with bombs. For disobeying the desire of some countries to be without Democracy. We cannot make the world Democratic. They do not want it. They want to retain their cultures. Which have come about after thousands of years. You say you bring peace.

But all you want is to be in charge. And order people around. We do not want that.

We want freedom. We want real freedom. One way of doing this is cessation from the States. Each State can live entirely away from political retribution. And the agenda. That way we can seek ways to dismantle big business. Big business is polluting. We will not require an army either. They are polluting. We can provide for ourselves in independent States. There is the old thing that we could just live off the land.

You have to think to yourself about ownership. No trespassing. We own a restaurant. We provide service and good food. But we are even against that. We should be allowed to get sustenance from our surroundings. Why make things private? And have private ownership. It is just another way to control. And that gives you the excuse to protect… what is yours. We were born into a world where everything is there for the taking. Do not close doors. What do you think you are doing?

The poor must be allowed to exist. And we must do away with religion. Religion is to be only stories that we must grow wise from. We must not take it literally. That there was a son of God. How ridiculous. It is from this venue that you make up all these things to get people interested in money. Or things of value. They do not even tell us what is in the cigarettes.

The Food And Drug Administration is supposed to make sure that dangerous drugs do not reach the market. It is happening. You can take heart medication, but the side effects can kill you. It is all greed. How to see the best way and most economical way to create business. We are not interested.

We go to the old thing of the planet having all that we need to live and exist. And that disease can take us. Because we respect it. They say doctors perform miracles. And we are supposed to applaud and take notice of. And in doing so respect every word the doctor says. He is destroying the world. Because he wants the right to make incisions.

Who is the enemy? The scientist. The… scientist. He thinks he can produce whatever he wants. Including the atrocities of psychology and psychiatry. He wants to produce a uniform race. Of people who… behave. This is terrible. We are different. And possess qualities that must never be looked down upon. But they… are held prisoner. You ascertain someone to have autism. You do not allow him or her to exist in the street. People with special skills. These are the people that we need. To tell our stories. To keep us humble. But you lock them up. There should be one thing only. The law… And oftentimes I am against that. We should not hurt other people. We all have a sense of belonging. And people with special skills are no different. But you desire to make things uniform. So that these people cannot proliferate. You are against it, because it ruins your idea of what may be.

We do not want that. We do not want you running around saying it could be a better world. Look at the pollution. Nobody wants to fix it. It is partly because we do not have the means. But that only says all the more that we have to get rid of big business.

Let us exist. There is to be no war. No fighting. No violence. In this way. Or under these circumstances we can find the way. Or return the way to us. We are still exterminating peoples from the planet. We are just doing it in a more ‘sophisticated’ way. Even books are not where it is at. I know that I try to make money from it. But it is a good idea for me. I have thoughts of how we can do better. I still believe that we are in touch with the Gods. But I am sure that they… are besides themselves. We go to see violent movies. About people in war.

But we never say war is bad. Never!

Don’t you think that that is the wrong thing to do? We have war. Let us just ask for peace. Let us start a peace movement that is going to stay. Every step of the way we have to read about what we have done. We almost exterminated the Indians. We are asking people from poor countries to work for next to nothing. We are declaring to spread the idea of Democracy. This is where all the people vote in order to all… participate. There is nothing wrong with the old way. To have monarchies. And theologies. Let us say we do not want to live an evil life.

And you find people doing it openly. They submit to demons and go shoot everybody at a children’s school. It is your… fault. You are causing people to do illegal things, because you are controlling them.

You want the police to be always right. I don’t care if you do not agree with me. It is rubbish. To control means to antagonize. And by doing so you are leading aberrants to conclude to do evil behavior. This has thrown out terms like hell. And other dastardly places we may go to. Excluding fear of the unknown. You have made it that kind of world. There is no good world that exists in the world. Most of the people are evil. And just trying to make a buck. Rich people take all the money away. And antagonize us into getting on drugs. Or becoming alcoholics. You hold this power in your hands.

And you have no right to. The old stories that we listened to from good people. Who had… autism and so on. They are gone. And they told of self-control. Which we do not have anymore. We have discipline. But it is to help continue the vagaries of a strange life. That most of us are having.

My family wants me to commit suicide. The customers are against what I am doing. They are just interested in their children. They do not think that the world has been harmed. They do not want to do anything… about it. Because then they will lose focus on making money. These are rotten people. I am talking to those that still want to retain the world as it once was. Healthy.

What the fuck… I am sorry I said that. It takes away from what I am trying to do here. But I want to say what the fuck do you think you are? There are other people here. You are not listening to them. You want to make gold a precious commodity. It is not… a valuable resource. And I don’t know why you are ascertaining what is precious and what is not. A fruit when you are hungry is going to be a lot more valuable than a piece of metal. You are closing doors. The result of which is that we live in a world that is in great danger of being consumed.

Humanitarian. We do not need doctors to go… look. We are satisfied with the diseases that have been given us. We regard them highly. And look at them with great insight. Do not try to get rid of diseases.