Oh to touch your face just one more time
To hold you, kiss you, that would be sublime.
Yet you are no more, departed, no longer here,
Yet in my heart, you are always near.
I smile at others when I say your name,
But my grin is there to hide the pain.
The days are dull, just monochrome
It's so hard to live your life alone.
But in the dead of night when it's inky black
I lie there trembling, flat on my back
My knees apart, my ankles wide
My fingers play then plunge inside.
I know it's me but I think it's you
Doing all the things you used to do.
I touch my breasts as I touched yours
The sensations rise, you are the cause.
When my orgasm burst and I finally came
I writhed and jerked as I screamed your name
So much pain, I'm sure my heart will break,
As my breathing slows I feel the ache.
Yet through this sadness, I hear your voice
"To live again is just your choice"
As a tear rolls silently down my cheek
I steel my heart and know what I must seek.